Thursday, April 17, 2008

Difficult Day

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Today is the day I was scheduled to have a C-section to deliver my baby. Instead, Scott Leland Young was stillborn on December 28, 2007. When I woke up this morning I realized I had been dreaming about Scott and the series of events that have taken place since his passing. The day started off very melancholy.


Joe took the day off from work so he could be with me today. Even though I am sad it has been a good day. My sister, Rachael, called bright and early to see how I was doing. A little while later my sister-in-law, Erika called me, too. It means so much to me to know that people care.

My friend Candice tended Hayden so Joe and I could go to the Salt Lake Temple to do sealings. I feel so close to my little Scotty when I am there. We weren't able to do sealings after all but we were able to sit together in the Celestial Room for a long time. It was wonderful to be there.

When Scott was born the hospital made molds of his hands, feet, and face out of plaster. I was afraid of them breaking so I had Stan Watts at Atlas Bronze Casting cast them in bronze for me. After weeks and weeks of waiting and calling multiple times they were finally ready for me today. My mom tended Hayden so I could pick them up this morning.

I couldn't have asked for anything better today. Since I didn't get to have my baby today at least I have his sweet molds. I will cherish them always.



He was so tiny but so perfect. He even had little finger nails.


He had such long fingers. I'm sure he would have been a great piano player.

He looked so much like his big brother, Hayden.


He curled his toes just like his daddy and big brother do.


I am so grateful for these wonderful treasures.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

The molds turned out great! I'm glad you & Joe had the day together.

Anonymous said...

I think the molds turned out very well.

It was a somber day, but a peaceful one as well, and I enjoyed spending it with Jessica. I am very grateful for temples, the Atonement, and the promises of the Gospel.

Anonymous said...

The molds are beautiful. I'm so sorry this has been such a hard day for you. But what a great idea to go to the temple to feel close to Scott.

Anonymous said...

I love the molds. They are such a tangible thing to remind you of his precious little body. I wish I had some of Zee.

Anonymous said...

Weird thing, I was just going to give you the link to Mrs. Dub's site, but then I saw that she left you a comment. Eerie...but not really, maybe just a little more like HF looking out for you. Hope her blog and friendship helps.

Anonymous said...

I hope you don't mind me leaving a comment. I saw your comment on Mrs. Dubs website and wanted to let you know you're in my prayers. My little girl, Savannah, was stillborn on Feb. 9 of this year, so I understand some of the feelings you've had! The molds turned out beautiful, Scott had such perfect little features! We had these done too, and it has been nice to have a tangible reminder for yourself and others that he was here and a way to get to "hold him" until you are reunited on the other side of the veil! Until then our little "angel babies" are working together to further the Lords work on the other side of the veil!

Anonymous said...

Wow Jessica! The molds are so amazing! Love you!!!!

Anonymous said...

I found a link to your blog from latterday keepsakes. We had a stillborn baby last Feb and I love the idea of getting her molds made into bronze. Could you tell me where you got it done and maybe some contact information for them? Thanks.