Saturday, December 29, 2007

Dear Scott

December 29, 2007

Scott Leland Young

I love you so much. You are such a special little boy. I am so sad that you never got to come home with your family and me. Yesterday was such a special day. I felt Heavenly Fathers love so strongly. I am amazed at how much peace I had during such a difficult time. I know that because of the gospel and because your dad and I were married and sealed in the temple, you along with your brothers and sisters were sealed to us for all eternity. You are my baby and will be forever and ever. I am so grateful to Heavenly Father for making this possible. I am so grateful for Joseph Smith’s prayer that made the restoration of the gospel here on Earth possible. I am so blessed to know that you are at home with our loving Heavenly Father and many relatives who have gone before you. I love our Savior, Jesus Christ, so much for suffering in the Garden of Gethsemane. I know that because of the atonement I do not have to feel so much pain and heartache. Jesus Christ has felt my pain and that brings me great comfort to know that I am not alone at this difficult time.

When I held you in my arms you looked so peaceful. I will always remember you. You are so beautiful. You look so much like your big brother Hayden. You have the very same little mouth. All I could do was smile when I looked at you. You are absolutely perfect. You were so tiny; only weighing a pound, and fit so snugly in my hands. Even though you were so small Heavenly Father made you perfect. I was amazed that you had two little tiny hands and feet with ten perfect fingers and toes. You even had fingernails and toenails already. You had two cute little ears. Everything about you was perfect.

You must be such a valiant child of God for him to have taken you from us so quickly. He needs you in Heaven working hard there. Even though you were with us for such a short amount of time my love for you could not be any deeper. I feel so blessed to have felt you in my womb so early and often. Even during the last few difficult days you moved around constantly to let me know that you were with me. Thank you for giving me that opportunity to feel you.

Last night there were a lot family members who came to see you. Grandma and Papa Anderson were there along with Grandma and Grandpa Young. You had many aunts and uncles who were blessed to see you also. Rachael, Rebecca, Allen, Ashlie, and Jill were all there. Your cousins were not there in the room but they were in spirit. They too understand that they will see you again because of the blessings of the gospel.

Your name has special significance. You are named after daddy’s and mommy’s grandfathers. I’m sure you already know that because I know they are there in Heaven with you.

Scotty, because of you, I will try even harder to do what is right and to keep all the covenants I have made with my Heavenly Father so that we can be together again. Last night as I held you I kept singing in my head “We can be together forever someday.” I know without a doubt that is a true promise. I look forward to the day when I can again hold you in my arms and hug you and kiss you. I will always be your mommy and you will forever be my sweet baby boy. I love you.