Thursday, April 17, 2008

Difficult Day

This is a wonderful book!
Today is the day I was scheduled to have a C-section to deliver my baby. Instead, Scott Leland Young was stillborn on December 28, 2007. When I woke up this morning I realized I had been dreaming about Scott and the series of events that have taken place since his passing. The day started off very melancholy.

Joe took the day off from work so he could be with me today. Even though I am sad it has been a good day. My sister, Rachael, called bright and early to see how I was doing. A little while later my sister-in-law, Erika called me, too. It means so much to me to know that people care.

My friend Candice tended Hayden so Joe and I could go to the Salt Lake Temple to do sealings. I feel so close to my little Scotty when I am there. We weren't able to do sealings after all but we were able to sit together in the Celestial Room for a long time. It was wonderful to be there.

When Scott was born the hospital made molds of his hands, feet, and face out of plaster. I was afraid of them breaking so I had Stan Watts at Atlas Bronze Casting cast them in bronze for me. After weeks and weeks of waiting and calling multiple times they were finally ready for me today. My mom tended Hayden so I could pick them up this morning.

I couldn't have asked for anything better today. Since I didn't get to have my baby today at least I have his sweet molds. I will cherish them always.

He was so tiny but so perfect. He even had little finger nails.

He had such long fingers. I'm sure he would have been a great piano player.

He looked so much like his big brother, Hayden.

He curled his toes just like his daddy and big brother do.

I am so grateful for these wonderful treasures.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Families are Forever

Last weekend my sister, Rebecca, and her husband, Lance, were sealed to their children, Riley, and Brea, for time and all eternity. This is so special to me. I have prayed for years for this day to come. I am so proud of them. I love them so much and am grateful that we will all be together forever.

I am so happy that they, too, will get to be with my baby Scott again one day.